Time for myself....

Hey everybody...

I was away... now "I'm back"..... means: I left Weimar for a few days and came back this morning.

I went to my familiy, my boyfriend, myself....

I needed some time for myself... Actually it's my spring break what means doing nothing even for a few days after the last semester... But doing nothing this spring didn't mean doing nothing in scense of sleeping and relalxing all day but meant not thinking about work, organisation, university, Weimar, ....

Time for myself.... In the last few days I repaired my bike with my grandfather, I washed my car, met several friends that I didn't see for a long time, made a breakfast for supporting friends, helped my parents preparing their new sleeping room, had lunch at my grandparents (tasting life experience), started reading a book of Anna Gavalda, attend my other grandmother to hospital (because she had to get a new knee-joint) and remembered her dead husband - my lovely grandfather who died last year in june - getting sad and scared of the death... Everybody has to die... I have to die sometimes... What happens then?... In the last few days I made a really nice drawing of the 5 weeks old baby of my boyfriends cousin and his girlfriend out of a photo of the beginning of march.. I visited the young family on saturday and got happier - life and death belong together.... That we have to die is no choise... but to create life is the choise we have and we should realize! This young person, this baby - Helene (named after her still living great-grandmother) - was so sweet and nice to see.. incredible!

Like life and death the wheater was the last few days. After the last snow last week (end of march!!) today the temperatures are getting higher and I hope to get some shafts of sunlight and wake up in a way and start helping KALI again.. I'm full of thoughts and feelings as you can read.. still a bit tired of working and still needing time for myself but giving my best to be there....

Between reality and fantasy

Last week I went to the museum, not very far from Zurich (I'll give you the name exacte later). it is an old monastery which is used like a museum of monastery and a museum of contemporary art.

We (two of my classmades and I) will try to propose an idea for the installation in this museum next year.

I'm wrighting here just to share with you my experience... which was wonderfull and very spiritual.

I must say, that allready the atmosphere in the museum is very particular. Pavillions for cotemporary art are spaces in a very old place with a strange history. (I should say, that in XVIII th century one noble family bought this monastery to live there)

At the and of the visit we had an opportunity to experience one work of artist (I'll give you her name later, I just forgot in switzerland all papers about museum). She did kind of guiding walk trough the monastery. We recieved headphones and we had to follow spaces 'with' this artist. She told us where we had to turn or wich door we had to enter. we had to listen for her steps to make the same rithm.


She made kind of sound installation. I couldn't say what was real or what wasn't. I had impression of a lot of people around me, walking or speaking. I could hear songs from church and feel the athmosphere of monastery. Then we went to the dining room and this noble family was eating there... and just from the sound, I could realise the peacture of this family, number of people around the table etc.

Sometimes we was comming into reality (to the real time), we should open the window and we could hear the plane passing not very far (also fantasy, but so close to the reality, that I couldn't understand).

Some times we could suddenly hear monks praying, and it was scaring me...

The impression was incredible, I couldn't speak after that for a long time. Acctually I didn't want to leave this unreal atmosphere....

a western monastry garden (for Ding) :-)
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sundaymorning
what a peaceful morning here in zürich
i sit at the window
soon the sun will rise
blue sky
white snow
everything is covered in silence

So happy to talk to Stefan about my culture

Today I am very happy--because everyone in Kali group knows my English is terrible, so they wait patiently for my slow typing in Skype.Thanks a lot...

Besides the language, much more important thing is the method.We are now still facing a not very clear future for our project.

About eastern way of thinking, I started to talk to Stefan about it, but I can not explain so much about China in one time talk.I think I should say more to all Kali members, if it is not too interupting you...

This is a famous garden,which is also the world heritage near my home town. I love my culture which I am soaked in. So happy that you westerner friends also interested in eastern way of thinking...

to be continued...

Happy Birthday

Dear Stephane,
Have a lovely day. I Skyped (spoke to Sabine) for the 1st time ever and now I blog for the first time ever. I tried to leave a message on Skype for you but I really did not know quite if I was doing it correctly! Thank you, I am starting to feel better.

Today It's my birthday...

HI guys!
I look forward to seeing you on skype or polycom today.